Different

Different: distinct or separate (dictionary.com).

I am going to try something different. I don't think I will be using this blogging site for a while. Maybe I will update every now and then. Maybe. I don't know yet. Too many people know about this blog and sometimes I feel like I can't really talk about what I want.

I hate you fucking people. I think it's that time again where I just start deleting people from my life. I'm so sick and fed up of people.

Late.

Lost

Lost: to absent oneself; distracted; distraught; hopeless (dictionary.com).

I feel so lost. I don't even know anymore. All I have been feeling lately is frustration, annoyance, and hate. I just can't take it anymore. I feel like I've been keeping it in a bottle for so long I am about to just POP like a champagne bottle. To top it all off with all my anger, frustration, annoyance, and hatred; today I came home and my computer wouldn't work. My computer died. So basically my life is over now. I'm dead. I'm tired. I'm sick of everyone's shit. I've been cussing more than usual too. I just want to break down! But I don't want to cry! It's stupid! I don't know why I have been so negative lately. Ehhh; I am not home right now. But I just got a phone call from my sister and apparently my computer works again; I feel relieved, but I still feel blah.

Whenever I am around you, you make me smile. You make me happy. You give me that stress free vibe. You calm me. You make me laugh. You got me ;)

Faint.

New

New: freshly; anew or afresh (dictionary.com).

Something new.

:)

Inspiration.

Go

Go: to leave a place; depart (dictionary.com).

I hate you. Go die. I hate people. Leave me alone.

"Sometimes you put walls up not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down."

Vindicated.

Thinking

Thinking: rational; reasoning (dictionary.com).

Too much thinking equals confusion.

I'm back at that spot again. I don't know who to talk to anymore. I feel like none of you can understand. It's like I'm walking in a corn maze trying to figure my way out; map less.

Change.

Carnival

Carnival: a traveling amusement show, having sideshows, rides, etc (dictionary.com).

Yesterday at school they had this carnival type thing going on. It was pretty cool. Very loud and fun :) Adrienne called me in the morning to go early cause they were giving out cool stuff, but to get the cool stuff I have to do a scavenger hunt type of thing and I went alone because everyone else had already done it. But I met a new friend along the way. His name is Richard. He's pretty cool. Like, as we were talking we found so many things we have in common! I was like OMG! SO AWESOME! He is also from San Jose, the east side; just like me. He also went to Overfelt High School, just like me. He helped me find all these places while hunting for the locations to get stamps :) He is such a nice person!

My stupid mug spoon thingy broke T______________T

Man, I haven't written anything in my blog for a while >.> But college is so much fun :D

I thought it was gone, but I guess not. It came back all of a sudden. It's like I'm trapped in a room, a small dark room. And I currently have no ice cream to soothe this whatever it is.

Trigger.

College

College: an institution of higher learning, esp. one providing a general or liberal arts education rather than technical or professional training (dictionary.com).

Wow, the first day of college was amazing at California State University of Sacramento. But still, I should have gone to San Francisco State University; so I can avoid people here >.>

"If I could paint, I would paint a wall of misery."

I never told you.